Midnight
winds; relished thoughts
revel like oasis
wounded memories metamorphose
new start
.:: Irony ::.
20 September 2003 @
LOL� How ironic�. I should have realised it sooner�. And I am starting to agree with Deej theory or something like that and it�s not only Deej whom I agree with, it�s also some other person theory about �People are stupid� or even �People are born Stupid�, either way works. That person even explained his/her theory, so if you want to check it out FIND IT among billions of Xanga users. I can�t be bothered to give the specific address� but you don�t have to go to that person site because if you think about it deeply, you�ll understand� I am stupid. You are stupid� Everyone�s stupid� shallow-minded, never look deeply OR EVEN THINK deeply. Why does everyone follow others and probably follow the same stupidity�?? Why isn�t there anyone who�s original and thinks stuff a bit more and deeply for themselves before complications or conflicts occurs�?? Hell, why don�t you voice out your opinions if you disagree about something instead of keeping it concealed in you and voicing it out privately to other people or later� It will be too late� Yes, I use to do that and that�s why I am stupid� Your intelligence really doesn�t count about stuffs such as being in a top level in some subjects in school, etc� it counts on how you decide carefully about yourself and how you go on being a survivor in Life.
Ok, I�m not going to explain it all, it�s better for you all to think about it yourself and that's why things such as �Minds� or �Guts� exist�. Jeez, don�t you ever feel so annoyed when someone, who you know a lot and probably whom you�re close to, tells other people stuff and you seem to be the only person who didn�t know about it?? Don't you feel ever so sad that people seem to forget your special day, and on that day they just seem to turn out normal... the usual and you have no enthusiastic greeting about your special day or even later, after a few days, when the people realise about your special day they don't ever say the words "Sorry, I forgotten about it..." or anything similiar to that ..? And on thier special day, you do something nice to them, making it all great and they never do that to you and you feel like a piece of shit..? And you would do anything for others and have nothing in return... lol, the irony.. And don�t you feel so happy to help out someone, but then the person doesn�t repay the favour..? Not even the word �Thank-You�?? And even if you are happy to help out someone from their tough situation, don�t you agree that they owe you a full explanation to that complicated situation since you help them out�? You don�t simply say �Sorry, I have to go� when somebody who had helped you ask for a full explanation on your situation and go off on purpose� that�s really rude and IT HURTS SO DAMN MUCH! And don�t you feel annoyed or hated if you told someone something (in it seem to be like a secret) and that person tells it to other people..? Even if you know such stuff that was told to you are not meant to be shared with other people and EVEN if that secret seems unlikely something to be shared among people, strangers..?? Gosh don�t YOU EVER THINK?! Even without the words �Swear to me that you won�t tell..� or something similar to that from the person who told you about it, don�t you have any second thoughts?! If a secret seem inappropriate to be told to other people and without the person, who told you about it, saying �Please don�t tell..� or anything similar to it� must you go off and tell it to other people?! Don�t you have any dignity or consideration or compassion??! And that where I agreed to Deej�s theory, well long time ago but now it seem considered fully agreed � And if you had promise somebody� KEEP YOUR FUCKING PROMISE!!! DON�T BREAK THEM! If you going to promise something but then you know that the promise will never be fulfilled for like a million years or when it�s more unlikely to happen� you shouldn�t have promised in the first place! Gosh, at least try not to break your promise, try no matter what and that will be good enough or don�t promise at all� EVER!! And if you had loan something from someone� GIVE IT BACK! And for some people, you need to keep some of you- know-that it�ll-be-an-inappropriate feeling or something to yourself�. No matter how much you feel that you can�t keep it inside you any longer, TRY!! Because there�s some things that you don�t have to be tell and some that you need to be tell, and inappropriate and unnecessary stuff will need to be kept inside you especially at certain times. And if you don�t have anything else to say to a person, stuff to talk about and you know it�s has gone boring� well if you don�t have anything to say, maybe words such as �Hi!� or anything to the person will be better than saying nothing at all or making the person feel �invisible� or forgotten�. Heck, don�t ignore them if they say something to you, want to be nice to you and want you to know that you both are still friends even though nowadays you have nothing to say to each other or lost contact or lost some of the strands of the bond that was once build up but now fraying away due to your idiocy�.
Oh gosh, that feels so good� all the stuff that had happen to me, stuffs I concealed inside me and never revealed� had burst out, it�s over-whelming� and now I had finally feel so good to write these, even though I know it�ll be pointless, these stuff I felt I wanna tell those people off over the past year� months� days..etc... yea pointless, but this diary has become something where I just let go some of my emotions and delete or hide it later...
EDIT*~
Ok... I'm fine now, it's time to move on... blah blah blah... Anyways feeling lazy today, burned my hand in the process of cooking Taco Sauce (sweet ol' memory... remembered cooking it with Deej in Yr 9) and ate it with my Tortilla Chips, taste good but not spicy enough, too bad I'm outta Chili and more spices, but hell still taste so good! And I added more ingredients into it! XP Anywayz, everyone loved it except for "someone" who hates veggies (too bad... ungrateful *beep*) oh wells, here's 2 pics of my Taco Sauce:
Here's moi creation... you can see the Tortilla Chips at the right-hand corner...
Here's the close up of it, Suppose to look reddish, but instead it looks a bit brownish in this picture =S I guess it's due to not having any Tomato Puree. Oh wellz...
Hm... maybe next time when I cook this again, I should make it Meaty Taco Sauce instead of Veggie Taco Sauce... so that "someone" will love it.... jeez... so picky...
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